i really blurred out

it suddenly change direction like what wind does. What am i doing? Pursuing the impossible.

Very dilemma indeed. Weihong always give the idea of a flirtish guy. Am i? Maybe the approach of friendship is different from ppl thats why people judge. Leong wai also say, human have high tendency to judge first before they act.

Training. Yesterday went over to train some guys. He is so thin that even wind can break him when he stood there. He tell me he cannot get over the wall and he have difficulty. After 15 mins of try out, he smiled. Because he got passed. Im not saying i helped him a lot. sometimes, one needs a voice to tell him with step by step teaching on what to do. He was overjoyed coming up to me and say yeah!!! this is my first time getting past the wall. Sense of achievement came. We did not stop there. He continue to awe me with his determination and he listens to my words. This reminds me of myself.

I do have self-discipline from how i was brought up. I endure everything during my training days, even if i can't, my body just won't stop going. But these are all training aspects. My previous instructors told me before, i will make a very good instructor, someone who ppl will died for if the day comes. But i choose not to. Because of my injury, i stepped out. I am very scary of my injury. The frightening twist and the Osgood schlatter.

This few weeks are not that good for my health too. My knee, my nose nerves and my gastric is killing me. My life is changing and evolving. Just hope that it is good. After so much of running and training on my own for weeks, finally the pain from Osgood Schlatter caught me again. Physical pain for me is better than having my heart aching.

Relationship. Still empty. Fadzli last night said something about interested then ok, not interested then forget it.

As quoted from Joel again, just remember vaguely. If two person like each other but both person thinks they do not compatible to each other and not try to be together. That is wrong as we have no right to think for each person. That is call selfish."

So tired. Later going to continue destroying my knee. LOL.... Endure and Excel.. LOL...