Devil vs Angel

A huge piece of cloud covers me and minimize my ability to be kind to everyone.

I believe there is a demon and angel that lives in everyone. They are often woken by thoughts, good for the angel, bad for the devil. When it comes to decision making, it's for the human to listen.

I often listen to the devil and ignore the angel because that's the way I can be myself and take a day off treating everyone kindly.

Believe it a not, as I am typing this on the train, my music changed to HOSSANA. My faith in god is still weak but I have not given up and deny him.

But my anger which I believed to be the other weihong that once dwell in me is back.. I've fought him away once, maybe it's because of my ignorant all the years, he found his way back.

He feasts on my anger and build a dome to make him stronger.

Trusts me, it's not an excuse pushed to an imaginary foe. It's real but to others who are ignorant about his presence may be thinking I am bonkers.

I've always been fighting my internal battle. It hurts a lot now that I have my girlfriend and Faith in God, I guessed I will moved into battle.

My parents are too old to take a second blow.

Show me the way, O' Lord. Save me...