Morning ponder 2

When I arrived in the station and boarded the train, a short Indian man walked in and this Chinese guy trying to get away from him. I have no idea why, maybe he thinks he is weird or what. But I don’t care, moved in and stood beside the Indian man, as long as there will be and enough space for people boarding from the rest of the stations.

As usual I took out my PSP and immediately got into the world of Winning Eleven. But something had distracted me. This Indian man pulled out a Holy Bible and started reading. I mean it seems nothing strange about that or it’s common. But after he reads it, he will kiss the Bible. This is definitely something new to me. I am a not a guy from a tribe or what, but religions are very hard to understand to an extend.

I’ve been to Josh’s church – Wesley. I have no idea whether it’s the same as others but people who believes really enjoyed their time there. They will raise their hands, singing very happily, loudly and I was told by Josh that it is to welcome god and offer his acceptance, also to let him know they believe. So i am pretty impress on the impact of a religion.

Now, back to this Indian man. He kissed it and kept reading and kissed it again each time. I can’t really figure what did he read that make him do that but I felt a feeling. A feeling that I never had before, of course not in love with him. But It’s an external feeling that was reaching into my heart. So I pondered and continued my game but this feeling kept lingering in my heart till now.

I believe in signs. Signs that are always everywhere and that make sense. I walked out of the MRT station and saw this guy wearing a shirt and the back of it has a lot of words. But because of many others in front of me, I can’t see what the rest was written but what I can see is “Think about it.” This is what struck me. As said, I believe in signs and it really kept me thinking. Think about what. To relate to something, I’ve related it to think about why the Indian man kissed the bible as he read and also why did I not blame something up there which I should say GOD?

Maybe it’s the way it makes me realized my accomplishment or growth. I don’t know and by the way I’m a Buddhist. I stopped believing in mysterious and superstitious belief after my friend’s death. Since then, feelings of wanting me to believe in the presence of God seems surrounding me, giving me signs of life everywhere I go. Maybe it’s not just me. It’s around all people I guessed. It’s just that people think I think too much, but my thinking is more than just thoughts. It’s the breakdown or deciphering of what comes to mind and why? That is why and also how I manage to decipher human emotions. Maybe not in the expert way, but to my understanding. So friends, take a time to have a step back and look around what exactly you see and try to decipher. I bet it’s not easy for starters. But as you grow with that kind of skill, you will find that it is fun and also challenging and it will never be a complete waste of time.