Not a reminder..

After my injury during my service, I have to go to Changi General Hospital to seek treatment. This place have plenty of memories. These memories accumulate in just two days but it felt like years.

Dragging my reluctant body back there to collect my letter, makes me nearly teared. I have no idea whether that this feeling is the feeling of regret, the feeling of missing someone or the feeling not being able to feel someone. Walking there, really brings back all the feeling.

What will she be doing now if she is still here with us. How much fun will we be together and travel around together if we are still partying together? I have so much regret and also so much shame to see her. The thought of her jump and my stupid assumption nearly cause her to do it during the 2nd attempt. Why am I such a Smart Alec?

Now even going to pay her a visit is a decision that may take me years. Many may say it was not my fault and should not feel bad but no one will ever understand how I feel. So no point saying any comfort to me because I do not wish to hear.

Finally my era of treatment in CGH has come to an end and will be transferred so hope the memories will slowly fade and bring in the new ones.