others

there are others in u... it already shows just one thing... I've been replaced. Forgotten what show le, this line is so painful ....

does anyone bother?

Watched the news and heard that the icebergs are speedily melting. And the risk of polar bear's extinction is soon coming true. so sad... Definitely many will say they dun think so much... well... whatever...

Nv again

I had enuff of u saying u care. stop it and i had it.

Alright.. last night went to Phuture. Its NOT FUN AT ALL. I just wanna dance, can't those kids get that into their sperm infested brain? That is so not cool! Hais.. Just wanna drink and drink and drink. Its because of everything. Drown my sorrows, my pain, my problems away.

Ways to get 10k?

Anyone? Anyone? Fees maximum 10k leh!! Teach me lah... Teach me... I pay for this and I may jeopardize my studies fees... and my savings. Why didn't my fall kill me?? Lol... sian.. really sian.. Please teach me!!!

It's empty jus..

It will be empty soon. Hais. All those I've saved up for my studies and working days maybe over in just one surgery. Hais. Money... money money... When will the compensation comes? How can i trust this organization when these things are handle by kids who are not trustworthy and giving the heckcare attitude? 2 for 1600plus max. I have 7 leh. if its not true, then i am gonna let hell in me run lose in the surgery room. Why am I not brief on how much is it exactly and when i asked, they seems skipping the idea of it. Its a hospital!! Gonna eat air soon sia... MONEY MONEY MONEY MONEY. to save my ownself from suffering and spend all i've save up. I really cannot believe it sia! FUCK!!! Even if compensation comes, I will already suffering from my own poverty. Even if my mother and dad can support me for the time being till i recover from the surgery. But, its about principles leh. I really hate this fuck organisation. Every fuck thing happen here really make me very fed up.

Gaining back my fitness soon..

After the bad fall, i resume slow regulating of my breathe again. went for a run, I am quite ready for a milkrun for now i guess. And ran up stairs too just now. Its been so long since i do that and memories of James, me and Jieren during SISPEC came back. Very happy. Just did a 3 floors up 5 times. Not bad le bah. LOL... first was.... 14.59s then... 14.52s, then ..... 14.26s, 14.03s and finally 13.56s. Very nice huh! LOL...

Received missed call from Peiling, my secondary so called good friend. Its been like a year since i saw her as I saw her in the clubs duno since when. Sudden call from an old friend, I was worried. Then as I saw the call, i quickly called back and received no reply. Quickly messaged her this, " Are u ok? did anything happen? If u are not ok, u can call me anytime alright? " Then she replied, I tot i saw u in Lao Pa Sat. And no caring asking of how am i a not. Hais... Why do I still bother them sia~ Treat them as good friends and ppl who say will hear me out, played me out. Let this story be heard AGAIN! This guy call Gary. When I was having a relationship, he smsed my gf morning messages and everything. Main thing is how the fuck he got her number right? I also dunno. my gf nv give, i nv give. only possiblity, he took my phone and have it himself. This is why till now i onli have a few good friends and buddies. Come to think of it, angry sia!! cheebye. LOL...

I guess till now i'm still the same afterall. Friend gt problem i will quickly try to sort or be there for them although i cannot help much. My parents say thats the weakness and also part of a strong point in me. Hmmm... blurred...

if there is still..

Today was quite weird, because I work half a day and went out with Johnathan to duplicate keys for my place. its like a lot lah!!! LOL.. Enjoy the trip sia!! He gave me a lot of history lessons, I guess its because I love history and Singapore does not really into it and that drops my interests. Now back at workplace. Boring!!! Hais......This friday.. hmm.. shud I or shud I not? Lol... Long yearn to go return to the dance floor and just forget my pain and everything. But suddenly the day draws closer, I am a bit phobia of it. Is it because of an unforgettable experience at St James that held me back? I dunno am i ready a not. FUCK! only just clubbing only and it seems to have a big decision to make. ARGH!!!

This few days dunno what to say to angel. Just hope she's fine and everything's alr. Miss her, yet, do not wish to sms. Because most of the time tell her that also no reply.. very sian sia.... just hope to see her again soon i guess. Think it will only happen in fairytale story. LOl...

Really dun wanna work in this place le... i totally heck this place. I think its time to relax and enjoy!!

Partying

soonn... just soonn.. i will be there le.. i will be hitting the clubs again BECAUSE I WANNA DANCE!!

Breeze Bar & Bad

HOME is long gone. Hais. Where is our Ya Si?? LOL.. Well, met up with Joel and Kaishan for singing and dinner or vice versa whatever. Neither do we know that HOME is no longer operating and very sian because we went there for that and its not there. u know, the feeling right. Ya!!! Hais... But was intro by Etheng that there is another KTV pub for singing called Breeze Bar. Ok, I think its because its facin the sea and gets the breeze thats why its called that way.

Breeze bar.

The whole place was almost deserted and party animal like us do not enjoy the special weird feeling of emptiness. Just dunno how to describe la, u guys know can le. Well, was singing and singing when this guy came over to ask me am i an NSF and started all this army life chats where they have alr ORD. Soon it will be our turn! Hahaha.. Then their grp just joined in with us and we all became a crazy bunch. Pardon me for my random sentences and I do not wish to constrain myself tonight to all this english perfecto. I think I can confirm i am allergic to Chivas as the same old bubbles on my 1 FINGER rises again. hahaha.. Felt bad sia, because was singing Yi Yan Shun Jian the start with Kaishan and I think I can pull up that high. But after continuous singing and drinking, my throat seemed sore and cant make it le, then was volunteered to sing it one more time with Hern Ying, then I broke off halfway. SO paiseh!!!!! Hmm... I will try to maintain the purity of voice next time!!! HAHAHAHA.. Quite an enjoyable night and happy meetings of new friends!!! Next time will jio all out again de!

Just now went to play badminton, its a omg experience as I last touched it is like primary school. Lol... And darn Woei Chao keep laughing sia!!! ARGH!!! LOL... well, thats the fun part of me playing badminton, I am like a stone, maybe 123 mu tou ren. LOL...

Many Many

So many things to do, so little time!!! Hahahaha... Really wanna enjoy sia.. I was thinking of getting a contact lens. Thinking of the benefits! Wearing of sunglasses I can see carefully, dun have to worry the risk of cracking my specs. ARGH!! Should I or should I not!!?!?!?! And also, was thinking registering my english name, BUT!!! have to find one that suits me. I was thinking Ben maybe one of the consideration. LOL...

Let me review again. What I have on my shopping list?

1) Digital camera
2) 8gb memory stick for my PSP - DELETE
3) New Spec after my ord - DELETE
4) A Job.
5) A mountain bike.

2) Contact Lens - INSERT
3) Overseas - INSERT

你是我的眼

Meaningful song o!!

萧煌奇-你是我的眼

如果我能看得见
就能轻易的分辨白天黑夜
就能准确的在人群中牵住你的手
如果我能看得见
就能驾车带你到处遨游
就能惊喜的从背后给你一个拥抱
如果我能看得见
生命也许完全不同
可能我想要的我喜欢的我爱的都不一样
眼前的黑不是黑你说的白是什么白
人们说的天空蓝
是我记忆中那团白云背后的蓝天
我望向你的脸却只能看见一片虚无
是不是上帝在我眼前遮住了帘忘了掀开
你是我的眼带我领略四季的变换
你是我的眼带我穿越拥挤的人潮
你是我的眼带我阅读浩瀚的书海
因为你是我的眼让我看见这世界就在我眼前
就在我眼前

Depression

Weakness is where I'm born,
Build up my strength when you are lost,
Attack your positiveness till its gone,
Death is the aim you will last engross.

King of darkness, I'm summoned,
Under your wings, I sore up high,
Under your command, accomplish your demand,
Destroy anyone with weakness, hear them gone.

Scary if you read the above, its written by my understanding towards it. This is by far what we people are weak in and that brings us down. So its time for us to stop it from getting us. We must stay strong to survive. This is then part of the way of life. Ok, i know no one knows what i'm talking about, but its just for my own reference.

Went Home

Not exactly home. I went to Jurong East to go Temple pray with my parents this afternoon. Why I say went home? Because when i was in my pampers and still wobbly walking ard, i was living there. hahaha.. The feel of the past came over to me, feel so good. Walking into the temple, peacefulness greeted me with gushes of gentle wind blowing and brushes against my face. Hahaha... Its really peaceful and after praying. I was thinking whether if next time i dun have family or wife and I'm retired, i may go there and help out in temple till the i am out of this world. Its really a nice feeling. Hahaha..

After that went over to the marketplace for lunch, memories came back again, was looking ard, seeing the changes. Ok, its weird, because I was so small then and i could remember some parts of the memories just by being there. Today's mood back home.. boRING!!! LOL..

Sorry

Yet again, thought of her. Just that the flash of that afternoon and night at bedok and EastShore. The distant not too big, yet the time seemed to have stopped. Holding someone who was about to died, someone who is fading away, someone who is so cheerful and a very good and maybe finally a best friend to me. Passing out time after time, and i had to wake her up by slap her lightly and calling her name. Just by thinking of holding her forcing her not to cross over that side still lingers in me.

Sorry to Joel about that night I was too tired to realise something big happened. Should have wake up and acc u for that horrible hours u've been. Sorry.

Memory is back again.

I was listening to my iTunes and this song was played. My mood dampened and i tot of yiling again. Flashes of us saving her, flashes of us in Johor, Flashes of us clubbing with her, and vision of her there. I guess its the regret of really not able to help much. and I guess thats what make me miss her so much. I really hope if time can reverse, I can calf her hands to mine and Joel's, so that we can stop what's seems inevitable yet avoidable.

我们的开始
是很长的电影
放映了三年
我票都还留着
冰上的世界
脑海中还在旋转
望着你慢慢忘记你
朦胧的时间
我们溜了多远
冰刀画的圈
圈起了谁改变
如果再重来
会不会稍嫌狼狈
爱是不是不开口才珍贵
再给我两分钟
让我把记忆结成冰
别融化了眼泪
你妆都花了
要我怎么记得
记得你叫我忘了吧
记得你叫我忘了吧
你说你会哭
不是因为在乎

Yiling, U idiot! Rest in peace. If not, i will knee jab u when its time for me.

Caught Movie

Was doing my basic theory this morning. The lady beside me failed too, WHY? She darnny copy mine. Oh please... I have a clever face, but it doesn't mean my logic is same as the driving logic lah!! idiot. Actually before i left, i look at her and smile and walked away. LOL!

Went home and Joel called for a meet up, so met. LOL.. Reached first and saw hahaha.. Jierenlin. LOL... well, me and Joel caught up with this fantastic show, THe Incredible Hulk. Its really unbelievably good!! The exciting + sexciting scenes, story is well build and romance are not that much and not that little. This movie shows greed, love, protect and what anger can become. Very nice, ard 1/4 through the show, u will start to be thrilled by Hulk and a surprise ending for a surprise beginning!!! and was going separate ways when I finally found the fragrance of perfume i always wanted. DavidOff Cool Water. I broke the one my mother bought me 4 years ago and i've been searching for it!! so happy. Hope tomo can shop again or maybe party in the night!!!

Yodsanklai "The Hero"

Yodsaenklai was born in the Nongbualampoo province in Northeastern Thailand, the hotbed of Muay thai. He was introduced to the sport by his older brother and started his own Muay thai career after watching his brothers' fights when he was 8 years old.

He is nicknamed "The Computer Wizard" because of his moves accuracy and is known for his devastating punching power and dangerous elbows. Before joining Fairtex in 2005, he was known by the name of Yodsanklai Petchyindee (ยอดแสนไกล เพชรยินดี).

On August 2005, Yodsaenklai won one the most prestigious Muay thai titles, the Lumpinee Stadium belt, by knockout over Runglaew. He became the 154 pound WBC Muay thai World Champion by defeating Australian John Wayne Parr on December 10, 2005 in Gold Coast, Australia. He also holds the Thailand 154 pound championship.

He defended his WBC title on November 11, 2006, against Mark Vogel in Wuppertal, Germany winning the fight by first round elbow knockout.

On June 30, 2006, Yodsaenklai made his K-1 Max debut on a Superfight at the K-1 World MAX 2006 -World Championship Final- held in Yokohama, Japan against Kamal Al Amrani, winning the fight by three round unanimous decision.

On November 29, 2007, Yodsanklai had a non-title contest at the "France vs Thailand" event, held in Paris, France against the French superstar Farid Villaume. Yodsanklai won the fight by third round referee stoppage TKO.

Mood for today

Mood is rather happy and tired.. Quite occupied. Tired, well, because of all the panadol and the pain in my head. Its like knife stabbing into the head than needles sia. well, thats another story that just past. Below embedded are a funny clip.



I love this little panda, so cute and the big one, just hilarious. Hahaha.. Just another relaxation for a busy day! ENJOY guys & of cos girls~

Simply Relax

Weihong is 70% back, because I was rather busy this morning working. Kind of enjoying myself clearing the list of work. I'm still very happy.

Just now i cannot take it anymore while accompanying Woei Chao makan lunh and I went to buy a plate of rice and a lot of gravy to cover it for easy swllowing and painful bites. But at least different taste since 3 weeks ago. haha.. PORRIDGE. Hais... This Thursday, I can't even drink porridge because of ROOT CANAL!!!! hais..

Lets Laugh

All these stressful days... its time for all to sit back and relax~ contributed by my brother, David Ko!

Boring + Happy + Sad

Boring that today is father's day and I'm in this damn place. ARGH!!! But the not bad thing is that 1000+ ppl are with me, i can here them just outside giving command. Hahaha... so i'm not loser afterall. haha.

Happy because of a reason, Joel knows, i know, Joel know that i know joel knows and i know joel knows i know. LOL..

Sad because..... another suay thing happen. My psp cannot be charged!! SO SAD LA!!! then have to go out repair then back in later!! ARGH!!!

Well, i just hope everybody who are still grieving over Yiling's moving on will be better lah.. at least look at what had happen on me, u guys and girls will feel better. LOL... Look on the brightside. I still dare deviling my life. lOL.!!!!

pain here and there + singing.

Hope can quickly recover and sing again. Very painful for me not able to open my mouth big enough to sing out loud again.

This morning is painful for me, or should i say ever since my bad fall, my head is killing me. The pain is like needles slowly stab in and pulled slowly out of the skin. Very pain and irritating!! and this morning worse thing is stomach also pain. Pain till can cry and nearly faint again on the bus because I guess all blood rushes to the pain as explained by my second specialist.

Lets review again what happened to me.
1) Friend passed away
2) Friend went missing
3) Flew off my Bike.
4) Fainted & Fractured my Jaw.
5) Fractured teeth.
6) Painful headache.

Hope thats the end, or should i say YES, NO MORE OF THAT!!!

angry

suddenly, ok, not suddenly. I am very grumpy and very angry and very very very hot-temper now. I am really very very angry. My head is bursting and all ppl become selfish. They are those people who dun believe in what others said, until its too late.
FUCK!!!!

yet...

just not very happy.

had it already

Since the end of last year, i have this bad luck coming on. How to avoid? People say just by not caring about it. So i did just about it. But! It just keeps coming. Remember the MIA friend stated at some blogs update ago? I've ask Seck wang to get in touch with her family and asked about her whereabouts. And Seck wang tell me that her dad told him that she long time nv went home already and Seck wang feels that the father said this in a tone that means it normal for her not to be home for a long time. How can i recover from what happened recently when more same things are happening to me? Emotionally downslope, physically downslope.

I can only shout for help here and in my heart.

Quoted From Mr Johnathan

The Brick

A young and successful executive was traveling down a neighborhood street, going a bit too fast in his new Jaguar.

He was watching for kids darting out from between parked cars and slowed down when he thought he saw something. As his car passed, no children appeared. Instead, a brick smashed into the Jaguar's side door! He slammed on the brakes and backed the Jaguar back to the spot where the brick had been thrown.

The angry driver then jumped out of the car, grabbed the nearest kid and pushed him up against a parked car shouting,

"What was that all about and who are you? Just what the heck are you doing? That's a new car and that brick you threw is going to cost a lot of money! Why did you do it?"

The young boy was apologetic.

"Please Mister... please, I'm sorry but I didn't know what else to do. I threw the brick because no one else would stop..." with tears dripping down his face and chin, the youth pointed to a spot just around a parked car. "It's my brother, he rolled off the curb and fell out of his wheelchair and I can't lift him up." Now sobbing, the boy asked the stunned executive, "would you please help me get him back into his wheelchair? He's hurt and he's too heavy for me"

Moved beyond words, the driver tried to swallow the rapidly swelling lump in his throat. He hurriedly lifted the handicapped boy back into the wheelchair, then took out a linen handkerchief and dabbed at the fresh scrapes and cuts. A quick look told him everything was going to be okay.
"Thank you and may God Bless You!" The grateful child told the stranger. Too shook up for words, the man simply watched the boy push his wheelchair-bound brother down the sidewalk towards their home. It was a long, slow walk back to the Jaguar. The damage was very noticeable, but the driver never bothered to repair the dented side door. He kept the dent there to remind him of this message:

"Don't go through life so fast that someone has to throw a brick at you to get your attention."

God whispers in our souls and speaks to our hearts. Sometimes when we don't have time to listen, He has to throw a brick at us. It's our choice to listen or not.

On the right track

I just pushed back a nearly dropped handphone on the table. This maybe a small act of kindness not have the handphone drop and prevent a spoiled mobile. However to me, its me who is back on track. Remembered that time when i've typed out me being not able to get back to the old self. Now this small act i did, i totally realize that i am on my way back. Can't wait to put my strength back again and capability again when i ord. Really looking forward.

Irritating

I love listening to music and also singing. But what I can't stand is those kids in the streets playing music and irritating music as if they can hear it clearly in the crowd. Its destroys music and doesn't make them respect people's work. IRRITATING! And now they brought it to my house! My little cousin brought his phone here and keep playing music and play and play. SO IRRITATING!!!

But, what contradicts is he is cute la. LOL.. because he is very young. So forgive and i love kids. LOL... And the sister of his, hais. Such a disappointment. Wanna shop and shop and even though to Aloy and Joel, my wardrobe are quite... hmm... but what she wear is like typical act gothic but failed product. Hahaha. Sorry guys, I'm very sarcastic, its like Nigel. I love his sarcasm towards the dancers.

Quote from Nigel:"You are being rude and disrespectful to the professional and beautiful dancers sitting below the stage by calling yourself a dancer."

Quote from Nigel:"You said you teach younger kids how to dance? I am so distraught."

He is so funny. He even teach the mother of the son who is so screwed up a lesson and they keep thinking of dream but Nigel wants to remind the mother of reality. Ok, i know most of u don't know what I'm talking about. nvm..

Future Choice

At one point of time, i was thinking that i've got what i wanna study but then again, not. Now still thinking about. Think and think. Because courses in Universities cost a bomb and they are like land mines. One step and KABOOMMMM!!! Not worth it. I guess I should work awhile and then slowly see whether i can sneak into the part-time courses while earning up. Meanwhile, my shopping list are out!

1) Digital camera
2) 8gb memory stick for my PSP
3) New Spec after my ord
4) A Job.
5) A mountain bike.

PRAY HARD I CAN GET IT BY END OF THIS YEAR!

Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone

I know its like I am really bored or something. Its true that I am bored ok. I've just watched the movie stated. Its very nice, real nice and remember, this is the first episode of the HP movie. Its like when Ronald Weasley and Hermiome Granger is still so cute and not so dumb. Hahaha. As said, its the first movie for the kids and also the series. The graphics looks fake when they were out talking to Hagrid, but other than that the graphic are well, better than virtual.

Suddenly dun feel like typing. ARGH~

Total Retard

I kind of find myself retard to believe in a retard. My friend came over to pass me some movies for me to get pass my daily MC. So I saw this Borat the movie, and I heard someone in my camp called Ron, made a remark and say its fucking funny. So few minutes ago, i feel like having a laugh and without much choice, i played it. After playing it for just 5 mins, i find myself a retard for even having it played.

I just wanna say, thats Ron's life.

Wake up with wishes

Well, this morning i wake up with a lot of things in my mind. hmm, not a lot i guess. Basically the things will be like wishes to my friends. Like Yang lim, good luck for your medical checkup, everything will be fine i pray. And Yingying, u better appear again because I don't have the feeling of you are MIA, but u are in trouble.

And also THANKS JOHNATHAN for helping me make this wonderful and bright blog. Your skill in photoshop is unbelievable! really very impressive!! TEACH ME LEH!!

Rules for me to Follow.

Was sitting on my rocking chair and think for a very long time. So i planned to bring myself up by setting some basic RULES to follow:

1) Go the extra mile

- Work towards perfection and for my own passion and research!

2) Discipline

- Be myself always, do what is right.

3) Be observant

- Keep a look out for Family and friends.

4) Be patience

- When under pressure, be patient and cool to still continue the work.

5) Be professional.

- Follow my rules.

Hope this rules can help.

Must Concentrate

I just cannot concentrate. This is don't know how many million time I've said in this blog that I am lost and this and that.

The Weihong 4months ago was someone who concentrate and helpful to all and will do the task allocated to him and even going the extra mile to perfect things. 4 months later, he is lost and cannot seemed to be able to concentrate and even the road ahead of him seems to have bend and still finding his way out of Silent Hill. What's wrong with me? Is it because this place is no longer worth working for? Am i bored of this place? Or its just me that who have become tired? Are these just excuses? I really have no idea. Just hope I can find myself back because its time and I've lost my principles and practice. Very vexed.

its time

I guess its time to shield myself from getting hurt.

Start to Worry

In my msn, there is only one person who will nv be online again. That is of cos Yiling la. Because of her incident i became more observant to all my friends sia.. LOL...

One of them is Ying ying la! Nv see her online, nv see her update blog, nv see her do anything and call her phone also nv on. After 2 weeks, i start to worry le. Of cos not I like her la, its just i dun wish to lose a friend again. Hais... please understand.

一眼一瞬间

(女)白茫茫的星光
洒在长长路上
想念的冰凉
你知道吗
你浅浅的微笑
深似海的眼光
都能掀起我
滔天的巨浪

(男)你相信吗
这是命吗
这次我们放弃抵抗
哪怕拥抱
在身上
画下深深的伤

(合)只要看你一眼一瞬间
哪怕是最后画面
我的世界
因为爱过而完美
谁都不该离太远
只要看你一眼一瞬间
足够我熬过千年
我不后悔
爱若让末日提前
我们要一起
好好迎接那句点

(女)白茫茫的星光
洒在长长路上
想念的冰凉
你知道吗
你浅浅的微笑
深似海的眼光
都能掀起我
滔天的巨浪

(男)你相信吗
这是命吗
这次我们放弃抵抗
哪怕拥抱
在身上
画下深深的伤

(合)只要看你一眼一瞬间
哪怕是最后画面
我的世界
因为爱过而完美
谁都不该离太远
只要看你一眼一瞬间
足够我熬过千年
我不后悔
爱若让末日提前
我们要一起
好好迎接那句点

(女)如果相爱是错
(男)错过又算什么
(合)这一次我们
宁死不放手
往彼此的心里跳
跳过天荒地老
wo oh ...
只要看你一眼一瞬间
哪怕是最后画面
我的世界
因为爱过而完美
谁都不该离太远
只要看你一眼一瞬间
足够我熬过千年
我不后悔
爱若让末日提前
我们要一起
好好迎接那句点

解脱

爱永远都是难题
失去分寸太容易
谁都是凡人不够小心翼翼
有时候忘了珍惜
伤害来的太无意
有时爱太急
需要空间呼吸
争吵愈狠痛愈深刻
然后不断自责
我们都忘了最初的快乐
拥抱越紧痛愈深刻
谁不会舍不得
现在我给的或许
并不是你要的
如果分离是唯一的解脱
最后的话我来说
如果永远你不必再难过
遗憾让我来过
就算过去的回忆太脆弱
连未来也没有我
爱着你
仍是我的执着
让你哭泣对不起
为了爱承受委屈
说过的承诺
其实还没忘记
愈是在乎的关系
愈是相处不容易
伤害了你
我也失去勇气
争吵愈狠痛愈深刻
然后不断自责
我们都忘了最初的快乐
拥抱越紧痛愈深刻
谁不会舍不得
现在我给的或许
并不是你要的
如果分离是唯一的解脱
最后的话我来说
如果永远你不必再难过
遗憾让我来过
就算过去的回忆太脆弱
连未来也没有我
爱着你
仍是我的执着
走到感情关键时候
却握不住你的手
还能有什么藉口
让爱再回头
多少的爱说不出口
就让时间帮我说话
我一个人拼命挣扎
总比两个人一起难过还好吧
如果分离是唯一的解脱
最后的话我来说
如果永远你不必再难过
遗憾让我来过
就算过去的回忆太脆弱
连未来也没有我
爱着你
仍是我的执着
爱着你唯一的解脱

appointment appointment.

This morning went to CGH to do the removal of stitch. OUCH! That is the reply i tell you. This is not the first time I removed stitch so kind of have this experience. But! This experience is very painful. I do not blame Dr Chris, but I blame the person who stitch me. inner 2, outer 3. But removing it takes like half an hour sia!!!! The pain is quite unbearable. He have to pluck out, this means something is wrong with the stitching method you bloody... Hais... Well, drop that aside.

The power of my mother and cab driver. Ok, they change my thought about Singapore. I use to dislike this place because there is nt much land, recreations, and places of attraction to as compared to Taiwan, Hongkong and so far so on, however, upon hearing the conversation of what happen during the past, the history to Singapore, i finally understand that this is the first place and the last place anybody will wanna be in because its safe and super safe.. Feel so proud to be a Singaporean sia...

Was on cab at the same time hearing there is some unhappiness in Japan. Ok, its not polititcs, or yes it is.. Its about my cousin la, he blame my auntie for screwing up his life and my auntie want me to talk to him about it as she is very disappointed in herself as she thinks she screw up his life which i think yes she did. LOL... Think soon, will be flying over. As her family problem is getting worst. U know la, kids at the most important age of 18 is crucial as he wanna go into University. And also my little cousin, his health is not that good. Hmm... I have to bear with the language bearer and their broken english. LOL... Just hope my beloved Yuki and Nori will be ok and be matured enough to accept opinions.

Check it out.

Just started to crank in some songs into my playlist in imeem here! Wow... was having some thoughts about how I was able to host during the days where IRC is everything for all things. I was one of the DJ in Yipeng's channel. Thats where I know Celia, Simei, Jasmine and some friends who have been forgotten. Sorry. It was quite cool you know, as in I was talking through my microphone at home and able to become a live DJ. Wonderful experience though. LOl.. I have people opening chats with me saying I got a funny voice, some saying love my daily horoscope check and also my music. Nowadays very long nv go check my songs, so now i am here in imeem placing some songs I am quite fond of. It may not be yours, but I am glad I found this song 一眼瞬间, sang by duet actually HOWEVER, in my imeem playlist, there is only 萧敬腾 singing. Listen to it and enjoy the powerful voice.

萧敬腾, from the start in the competition in Taiwan, the few performance I was thinking what's so special about his voice and why did Zhang Hui Mei choose him to sing with her? Slowly watching youtube regarding his performances, I finally realise that his low voice is actually able to project real high. I mean for example if you are in choir, it seems you will be place in base. However, placing him in Tenan( pardon my wrong spelling ), his voice is actually not able to be place in any group. So when his album is out, I am going to buy.

Laught Out Loud

I know i should oopen my mouth too wide only when i am doing physiotherapy on my jaw. But yesterday i've picked out one of the shows my brother bought and yet to watched for ages. It's called Zoolander. There are too much of funny scenes in there, although it doesn't make any sense but it just brightened up my night. Oh, if i speak of the lovely couple, u will definitely know why it is funny, the cast are.... BEN STILLER AND CHRISTINE TAYLOR. I can say Ben stiller is my fav. comedian ever! And his wife ( in real life too ) Christine Taylor is super attractive and gorgeous. OMG! I've become one of them. It really feels good though.

Just an update on my mouth. My jaw... omg, still hurts, I am thinking of plucking some teeth out. I dun mind looking ugly because it doesn't matter anymore.

Need to work

Well, definitely, just talk to Karen and i suddenly feel the chill sia.. because i was saying all this sad things and i feel like.... whatever... I am just me.. dun wanna burden anyone to listen to me... I mean its true.. Weihong is like this. Why? Because Weihong is like his mother. LOL... Dun like to trouble ppl. I guess thats why my mother is not always worry about me growing up. Even though i had my bad days and bad years, but its like i always walked out myself as I am a natural born thinker.

This few days of MC really turn me around. Sitting on my thinking chair and I start to think of cos...

I was like thinking, what am i like? I am thinking I was Hardworking, I followed rules, I thought for ppl, I helped ppl and this things just stop when i enter the service. They showed me no point doing that, they showed me nothing at all. I guess this is what changed me afterall.. Dun worry, this MC days i will continue to search myself out.

结束了吗?

在我活到现在以来，人生真的很多汁多彩。 对于人生，真的有点厌倦。 一切都解束了吗? 小时后的我，是个快乐天真的小孩。但这世界和环境已充足的改变了，高伟鸿。是我变了还是这就是我? 好累好累。。。

我想和我所有的好友们说声谢谢和对不起。我的坦率时不时会得罪人所已得说声道歉先。。。哈哈哈，总觉得我好阴险。。。

Not Okay At All

feeling rather distraught. Feeling kind of let down. Feeling very low in morale. This time i really come home to 5. LOL...

Just watched the first episode of Terminator, the Sarah Conner Chronicles. LOl.. Its really very power.. I mean the girl protecting them. LOL... She is awesome.. LOL...

Btw, i would like to thank all my friends and colleagues who send smses to asking my condition. Really important. Very touched. Thanks a lot~ So dunno how to express but just thanks !!!

Hungry.

cannot bite anything for weeks. onli liquid diet. Hungry~~~!! These are the pictures to drool me up.. ARGH!!!





Above are from Thai Express when me and Kokheng visited. Really nice.. Nv knew it changed so much. hmmm.. HAIS!!!

pain..

ok.. keep this short. Because someone ask me to show the picture!!!! nah give u! LOL!!!

the always ever thought to be strong weihong fainted and broke his jaw. Yes it true. LOL... Plus a deep cut underneath the chin. 2 stitches inner, 3 stitches outer. Pain till I can joke ard. Its true. just ask clarence, and those who sms with me regarding the matter. now, onli 1 picture...


hmmm.. this is the cut. the fracture.... better not if u wanna eat.

I am totally blurred out

This is the world of truth. I can continue to smile and walk this Earth like nothing happened. But when my world and this Earth quiets down, the heavy burden and past sets upon me. I guess this is what you ppl called it "EMO".

Yes, many ppl do not like a EMOtional guy. But who can lie to themselves when they are down? Above mentioned, yes, i am emo, i even derived an English word, Emopatic. It means a time when i am emo. I can party all night long, drink till my hearts out and laugh till my lungs burst. But, when I am going home alone, I will start to think what the hell am i doing. I don't think most of u know what i am talking. Because u guys are on the lower level thinking of what to buy with the salary and bonus than really cares what really important like should i saved it up for marriage.. ARGH... forget it...